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Exist Inanimate

by Acydia

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1.
Stasis 00:30
(Instrumental)
2.
As I walked, I had watched how the dead begun to rise from the blackened soil below Curl, contort and snap away the soul from the liberated corpse who was once opposed I, I barely exist I remain inanimate Waking the demons behind my eyes Paralyzed Terrifying visions hold me immobilized Inanimate Lying still, but trying to move As these inhuman delusions persist Can these waking dreams truly be real? Am I the recidivist? I remain inanimate Waking the demons behind my eyes Paralyzed Terrifying visions hold me immobilized Inanimate Why am I so terrified If I cannot ever prove this exists? Here I lie completely petrified Choking to death ‘cause I’m holding my breath And I see hell in my waking dream 
They’re coming for me
3.
Blood Code 03:43
You wrote a list of the promises you made to me You held your blade, you cut my throat You wrote it in my blood It's been my blood, my sweat, my tears that you take You keep cutting into me hoping one day I'll break Why must I suffer for mistakes that you've made When I never agreed to join these sad games you've played I was never meant to be your enemy You called me part of your family But you held your blade against my neck You dug in so fast, I've let go of the past But there's just some things that even you can't take back It's been my life, my world, my heart that you hold In death: we live within all of the lies that you've told The stories you share, you were never there You said it yourself, you and I don't compare I am not meant to be your enemy You called me part of your family But you held your blade against my neck You dug in so fast, I've let go of the past But there's just some things that even you can't take back You wrote a list of the promises you made to me You stabbed me in the back You wrote it in my blood You keep spreading your poison Isn't this what you wanted? To have my blood on your hands You expected retaliation Is this the way that you had ever planned? You called me part of your family But you held your blade against my neck You dug in so fast, I've let go of the past But there's just some things that brother, you can't take back This is blood for blood Blood for blood
4.
Seasons 04:21
Seasons change and pass us by But will the cold that's within us admit defeat? Are we meant to lay down and die Or will our burning desire take control of the weak? Open up my eyes as the light begins to take over Engulf me in the flames as this dream will not last forever Don't let the dark take over Embrace the day ’cause the light lasts Breaking down behind my gaze Will the night soon take over and lead us astray? As the darkness begins to fade What kind of creatures do shadows pretend to portray? If I open my heart to the darkness Then the pain will never fade Being stranded in a place of sadness Leaves no place for the light to take over today Don't let the dark take over Embrace the day ’cause the light lasts longer As the seasons fade You may begin to give up hope When you’re tortured by feeling afraid Open your eyes and try not to choke When the dusk leaves you feeling betrayed We will make it through together As sure as the sun will rise Can we make this change forever? As the day falls to the night Don't let your shadow take over Embrace the day as the dark grows stronger And the season will change Now can you see in this consternation All the pain will be rectified Never mind,evil forsaken ‘Cause in the end, we're all crucified We can create a new path to be taken But this story begins with a choice Will you be helpless or strong and unshaken Not everybody will have a voice Don't let the dark take over Embrace the day ’cause the light lasts Open up your eyes We will make it through the night Open up your eyes Embrace the lasting light
5.
Welcome, I welcome you back But my demons will make an attack Stranded alone and inside of my mind Now I need to escape Have I run out of time? Caged in this empty cell Chemical Forcing me to feel nothing but rage Chemical I can't be me while I'm still trapped in this cage We all, we all need to hide Or my demons will trap us inside Over and over, I've tried to evade But the monster inside keeps me trapped in this cage Escaping is parallel Chemical Forcing me to feel nothing but rage Chemical Trapped inside this god damned cage Corroding, through my soul Evolving, why can't I be whole? Look into my eyes Can you see what's changing me It's chemical Forcing me to feel nothing but rage Chemical Stay out of my god damned cage I'm caged (free my mind) Chemical (chemical) I'm still caged
6.
Dreamscape 02:56
(for best experience: Close your eyes. Imagine the world around you...) I was dreaming… Or at least I thought I was. It was like some sort of future: A sad, hopeless place where something big, or catastrophic was about to happen… No - It was our future and it was the beginning of the end. It's raining. The sound seemed very calming at the time. I’m standing in the street. It's busy. People were all around. Walking past, just staring at the ground, mumbling to themselves. They began speaking louder as they began to notice me. Voices all around. It seemed like I was supposed to listen to every little thing they were saying. I tried to focus on one, but they just all overlapped. Then there was more. And more. And more. They were getting louder. I couldn't even think of my own thoughts. I was getting anxious. I was getting scared. And they got even louder. I can’t understand why I couldn’t make out their faces. The voices turned to screams... Then silence. I then began to realize, None of this is real... And that's when... that's when I knew... We've always been corrupted
7.
We've always been corrupted Open your eyes and see It's by design With our eyes open staring into a void Hearing stories while chaos keeps us paranoid How do we stop these vicious feelings Bitter toward others achieving It's all just a disgrace of a social construct (give me love, give me love) Loathing instilled depression forming negative thoughts (but look at me, look at me) Now when you open your eyes Can you see past the blue and beyond? Your selfish intentions still locked up inside And everyone else remains corrupted by design Blasted by hate and propaganda Believing these lies in our fragile minds How do we stop our virus from spreading? Achieve perfect silence in a world worth forgetting It's all just a disgrace of a social construct (but look at me, look at me) Loathing instilled depression forming hateful actions (spreading hate, spreading hate) Now when you open your eyes Can you see past the blue and beyond? Your selfish intentions still locked up inside And everyone else remains corrupted by design We've always been corrupted Open your eyes and see It's by design Happiness is not determined by others wealth Why can’t you see you're just hurting yourself? How do we stop thinking that we are lesser To someone who is nothing but a worthless aggressor? Can we stop believing in these hateful actions that we do not deserve Shutting it down before we become lost to static (but show me more, show me more) Now when you open your eyes Can you see past the blue and beyond? Your selfish intentions still locked up inside And everyone else remains corrupted by design It's all by design
8.
Search for your light in the dark In the darkest of corners With small cracks of light Will the hatred inside you Continue to fight With the light that fades You've opened up and been riddled with darkness In so few days Like waking up on the throne of madness Look deep Inside of yourself Search for the glow and find The beauty in shadows Since the mirror was broken It's too hard to see I left my heart behind Embraced the darkness within me Stop me from falling I've opened up and been surrounded by darkness Can you hear them calling? I've woken up in the kingdom of shadow Look deep Inside of yourself Search for the glow and find The beauty in shadows Can you search in your heart? Will you escape the dark? Look deep Inside of yourself Search for the glow and find The beauty in shadows
9.
Demonized 04:43
You tell yourself you’re good But you know it's a lie The angels won't save you Once you fall from the sky Their wings have been clipped And their bones start to crack Their faces distort and scream "There's no turning back!" Burning away from the form that you take Blackened by the evil of your wicked ways You've cast down your life and embraced your sins Continue your actions and not one of us wins I see the evil behind your eyes Your blinding anger overtakes all of my pride Wide awake the worry creeps inside With no remorse for the soul you left behind You've been demonized Now the angels begin to pray That this evil inside you will someday change You won't return from hell hereafter ‘Cause now you’re a slave to your darkened master Have you turned your back on the angels? Because this way is much more painful You won't be able to escape your captor as you scream "Save me from my own disaster!” I see the evil behind your eyes Everything about you that was good has died As your demons slowly creep inside With no remorse for the soul you left behind You've been demonized You're the demon “Move!” Would you move if you could and you weren't bound in chains? But the truth is that fact that you've become insane The angels deceived you and swallowed your pain I would try to revive you if you weren't so deranged I see the evil behind your eyes Everything about you that was good has died As your demons slowly creep inside With no remorse for the soul you left behind You've been demonized You're the demon You've been demonized
10.
When you sleep, do you dream? Do you lie awake in agony? Can you scream When the shapes are moving closer? Can you see the demented face that stares right through you? Impossible to move Do you think you can? Do you? Paralyzer I'm frozen in fear It's holding me here Interloper Why can't I scream “Save me!” When you sleep, can you breathe? Do you believe it's your destiny? "This lucid dream will be the end of me!” In the dead of night, you awaken Covered in sweat, clutching your chest What part of you was taken? Paralyzer I'm frozen in fear It's holding me here Interloper Why can't I scream Save me! Lay back down Let go of fear If it wanted you so badly, would you still be here? Close your eyes If you hold on to fear You will feel it growing stronger, do you feel it drawing near? Go to sleep Oh my god I'm bound in my sheets I'm so scared right now I can hear my own heart beat Oh my god It's coming so close It breathes in deep and whispers “Go to sleep" Wake me up Oh my god It's staring at me My gaze can't be broken; it's loving this moment Oh my god My eyes will not close Imagine the anguish of the unforeseen throes Lay back down Let go of fear If it wanted you so badly, would you still be here? Close your eyes If you hold on to that fear You will feel it growing stronger, can you feel it drawing near Paralyzer Interloper Why can't I scream “Go to sleep!”
11.
Dusk 03:20
You can't run forever

 The light
 Just as evil as night 
Chaos shall reign
 No escape in sight

 Running and hiding
 Remaining unseen 
If you fight through tonight, will you ever be free?

 Run and hide 
Remain locked up inside

 The ghosts of yesterday will find you 
Turning you into an empty husk
 You are the witness under faded hues
 Numb to the cold that is guided by dusk

 You can run, you can hide
 But you can never escape into the night 
Try and hide
 Remain trapped in the night

 The ghosts of yesterday will find you
 Tear you apart when the skies turn black
 Escape to the dawn, but it won't last long
 As quick as the day without warning
 The dusk will come back

 You can't run forever

 The ghosts of yesterday will find you
 Holding you down as you face the beast
 Hiding away from the light as you pray
 We're coming for you, now day after day

 Hide
 There's nowhere to hide
 Run 
You can't run forever 
12.
Shapeshifter 03:32
Now show your face 
I can see you enigma, you stay in one place

 My mind is a storm as I watch you transform
 You keep changing and changing and changing and shifting your shape

 What are you really?

 Why can't I perceive what exactly you are?
 Leave me be, I'm trying to sleep 
But I feel you staring at me as you keep Shifting your shape
 Can't you see the fear in me?
 Just take your place
 Take my life or let me be

 What are you really? Shapeshifter 
You just keep shifting your shape
 Can't you see the fear in me?
 Just take your place
 Leave me be shapeshifter 

You keep on moving and changing and changing
 You just keep shifting your shape
 Leave me be 
Shapeshifter 
13.
Inferno 01:44
From the day I was at birth I believed this day would make me worth Everything I have ever done and everything I will To the day I take on death, I will breathe just one last breath And as the day will come to pass That I will be at long last The final one to rule my world The sight I see is not blind The day that I was at birth I created the inferno that engulfed earth Then as I realized it, but not at first This is my time and I will not fail The day the fire eclipsed the earth I was proud I hadn’t made it worse Born again I stoke the flame Now you will remember my pain
14.
God Comlex 04:53
I am your destruction of innocence
 Don't play the victim 'cause that's not what you are
 You think the world should bow at your feet
 Though they’d have to ignore all of your lies and deceit

 Giving up is easier said, but no
 Lay the blame on another
 Can't you see who you're hurting
 Never hurts to show your true colours 

Look me in the eyes and admit that 
You, you can't be so diluted 
Take your place on the throne
 It's easy to find someone better suited

 You think you're a king 
You think you're a God
 Well listen to me now

 You may see yourself in the clouds
 But you will fall from the sky
 For now, you may think you're a god
 But you're nowhere near that complex

 You're not that complex

 Burning down your ivory tower
 Oh, who could be so ambitious?
 We can all see your weakness
 Given that you beg for forgiveness

 Looking down on all who approach you
 How, how can you be so heartless?
 Look at what the “peasants” do for you
 As you hide away in your fortress

 You may see yourself in the clouds 
But you will fall from the sky 
For now, you may think you're a god
 But you're nowhere near that complex

 You're not that complex 

I am your destruction of innocence
 Don't play the victim 'cause that's not what you are
 You think the world should bow at your feet
 Though they'd have to believe in all your lies and deceit

 Look at what you've done, playing god
 Shame that you're such a disgrace
 Do you really think that you're safe
 Quickly, you can be erased
 Look at what you've done, killed us all
 Shame you've come to the wrong place
 I will leave you in the ground

 Broken, you will be left with nothing 
No, no word's are left unspoken 
At least you will always have something
 Knowing that you are not the chosen 

Always overlook my achievements 
How, how can you be so carefree?
 Funny, now you ask for allegiance 
Better pray to a god you can trust me 
God be damned 

You may see yourself in the clouds
 But you will fall from the sky
 For now, you may think you're a god
 But you're nowhere near that complex 

Look at the world you're shaping 
It's clear to see you're not good enough
 Oh, you think you're the king
 You think you're a god
 But you're nowhere near that complex

 You're not that complex
 You're not that complex
 Fuck your god complex
15.
Vivified 02:42
Fading away, the shadow incarnate When the light begins to show Stasis holds me no longer but I can still feel the shadow I can face this fear When the demons can’t be seen As the night falls, it becomes so clear What if that fear comes back? A glimpse of figures behind my shoulder Paranoia with no end Breathe new life into me Renew me, control me, consume me, but I will fight I can face this fear When the demons can’t be seen As the night falls, it becomes so clear What if the fear comes back? The fear comes back Awakened again to the screams and the shaking The night is in my past Revitalized, I’m now alive Away these demons, I now cast I can face this fear When the demons can’t be seen As the night falls, it becomes so clear What if that fear comes back?

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There are thought provoking ideas of what happens when we sleep. What do we think we see in the dark and what can see us? When we sleep, we're alive, though our bodies are inanimate. While we dream, in our minds, do we still exist?

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released May 2, 2022

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Inspired by heavy riffs and intricate melodies by bands crossing all genres in the metal scene, the one-man solo project Acydia brings forth a whole new sound, living deep somewhere within this massive range of metal. Bringing forth elements of groove, metalcore and experimental, Acydia’s sound and songwriting mirrors that of his own musical journey: creative, unique and most of all, heavy. ... more

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